Wednesday, July 7, 2010
A Mother's Confession
I must confess, I was stressed today. Not at you, my child, but outside things that should not affect you. I was stressed and tired. I only half heard you talking. I was only half listening and slow to respond to you. It was then I realized I am going to fail you in ways I did not expect to. I have never strived to be a super mom and in fact I try to pride myself on being only human. But as I took stock of my exhaustion and looked into my little one's eyes trying to engage me I got a reality dose of what it is to be only human. As a mom you know that there are things you are going to stumble through and possibly still not get right, you expect that. Today it was the little things that I enjoy so much like listening to my son and playing with him that I did not expect to fail at. It does not make me a failure as a mother, but it is a warning of the transitions ahead with our expanding family and the physical limits of being human. So son, I may not hear you every time, or answer you right away, or be able to stop what I am doing to talk with you but I will always love you with every ounce of my being. The love that I have for you and your future siblings is what will always keep me striving to be the best that I can be for you.